Adam Vines
Adam Vines is the author of three single-authored books of poetry — Lures (LSU, 2022) Out of Speech (LSU, 2018) and The Coal Life (University of Arkansas Press, 2012)— and two collaborative poetry collections written with Allen Jih: Day Kink (Unicorn Press, 2018) and According to Discretion (Unicorn Press, 2015). He has won awards for his teaching from the University of Florida and at UAB, where he is an associate professor in the English Department. He is editor of Birmingham Poetry Review and faculty advisor for the UAB Fishing Team. An avid fisherman, he has published poetry in Poetry, Southwest Review, The Kenyon Review, Gulf Coast, Barrow Street, The Cincinnati Review, 32 Poems, The Literary Review, Five Points, Ecotone, The Hopkins Review, Verse Daily, and Poetry Daily, and others.
My Father’s Trowel
It was a magic wand, baton, from which
Retaining walls and symphonies appeared—
But only in his hand, the one I feared—
Prosthesis shearing clangs and twangs, the pitch
Of labor. With the “fucks,” the flicks of mud
I mixed too thin, the tamps of bricks and rasps
Of joints, the courses rose, despite my lapses
Back to a time before when the word was “crud,”
And curse words he would hide from me were kept
In stow behind closed doors with Mom. He wore
A tie back then and ran his routes, collecting
Premiums, “beneficiary” the word he swore.
But I can’t see that man, that truth, except
Right now, his trowel in my hand, its anger tolling.
Coursing the Joints
While setting trots and drops for channel cats
on the river where my family spawned, I sculled
the bank, around the bend and past the camps
where city folks launched boats with colors culled
from candy stores and tourist traps, “The Lulled,”
my gramps would say in his last years when wakes
from outboards nearly swamped his Jon and bulled
him to the bank. I pulled into the slough
where he would mash his shine and take a nip or five and lose
himself in jars. The cabin that he built
five decades back from rock he’d hauled and sand
he’d scrapped from roads, the mortar pink from clay,
was torched. Some hunters I ran off the month before
were running dogs for deer and said, “the land
ain’t yours.” I walked them to the boundary line,
a pistol at their backs. “We’ll get you, pussy boy,”
they said. Some empty Bud cans had been tossed
beside a white oak where we nailed and skinned our cats.
The cabin was now just a shell, a porch
of river rocks, a couple walls of shale,
the chimney still intact. Inside, a scorched
bed frame, a deformed stove and fridge. The rails
that held a whittled pistol grip to our hailed
.410—named “Gar Be Gone”—laid on the hearth
beside the lock and barrel. The rest was veiled
with ash and char, but I could see the mortar lips
the inside walls once concealed, where he had jooged with fingertips
and squished the mud between the upturned rocks
where trowels just couldn’t fit or when he tipped
the shine while mixing mud and laying rock.
I pressed my knuckles into his, my thumb,
my palm, and bent a brick tie back and forth
until it snapped. I ran my hands across the joints,
from course to course, my fingers spreading out
and snaking through his hands: the fossils he
had left behind, the gift the fire gave back to me.
The Silent Stones
The Watson’s pond, hard freeze—which in
the Black or Bible Belt was rare as sin,
or without God, or so our Baptist preacher ruled
we should believe. My friend and I were skipping school,
ice fishing Bama-Style in store. We tossed
a brick that did not make a dent and slid
across the ice like an unanswered prayer. We flossed
some fishing line through another’s cores. It did
not make a dent and broke the line and slid
into the other brick as if it were a curling stone.
“Olympics!” Scott exclaimed and grabbed a stick
shaped like a backward shepherd’s crook and honed
the handle slick, removing all the bark.
I grabbed up all of Preacher Watson’s bricks,
a handful at a time, and lugged them to the bank.
We slid our stones until we had our fix:
a hundred bricks or so we spread across
the ice, coal barges that had lost their tugs
or iced-in ships. Then we practiced casts with plugs
we rarely pitched for fear of losing them to snot moss.
The bricks became the spawning bass I sought.
I skated by my Zara Spook, and Scott
tied on his Hellbender and took a shot
with a long cast and snagged a stranded yacht
and pulled it in, the drag locked down, retrieve
as steady, measured as a pro until
the frayed line snapped, the lure’s bill—the magic of its lilt
and shake—an iceberg jutting up.
The notes we deceived
our teacher with, our mamas’ signatures
we looped in prideful Os and Ps, didn’t hide
our curling. After everyone, it seemed, had tanned our hides,
the bricks had sunk, and we had pitched enough manure
and prayed in vain for all those bricks to rise,
spring brought us back to that damned muddy sty.
The Hellbender had floated to the bank, our lie
with treble hooks fixed fast to grass like a combine’s
tines. We waded out beyond the spawning beds
and dove for bricks while Preacher Watson presided
over us, chastened us beneath his breath while we wed
our giggles to a haggard twang each time we laid
a brick upon the shore. The pollen worms
from oaks were dropping everywhere. A yellow sheen
consumed our wakes when we swam back and forth,
but under water we discovered in the stones
and buried in the muck a silence we
had never felt in church or school, a silence sin
reserved for those like Judas, his silver coins
now still, like lures suspended on a frozen pond.
Memory Care
She can’t remember red, though red is what
she wears, or elements: the wind outside,
the rain last week. She will (or won’t) abide
the host this month, his dead-fish hand and cut
of cheek when he asks if she’ll pray with him.
The yeses, nos have lost their way, and she
just nods at everything, her face a whim
her fancy never bears. She would have seethed
at people she now hears and doesn’t hear:
“That pudding looks so good. You must be cold.”
The preacher whispers in her ear a fold
of sounds, “take, eat—this is my body here,
given for you. This is my blood, which is
poured out for you. Now, drink.” She will not part
her lips. The preacher becomes her husband: “this,
my body, this, my blood.” He hits her mark.
She fingers her chest—its steady ramp—the thrum
of florescent lights and says, “my body, you,
my blood, the covenant we made anew,
my blood, my body. Remember us, our son?”